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alright i dont’ complain much on here (i think this is the first time i have actually said anything bad on tumblr) so here i go *gulps* btw this is my life troubles :P 

this post is to vent i guess. my mother is very uncomfortable with most of my friends and hates very male on the face of the planet i’m not kidding she does…. (she does have reasons as to why but i’ll go into that later) which makes me a very unhappy camper even more so since during my whole life so far i have only gone out to hang out with friends about 10 times :/ it’s sad i know and pathetic. that’s the reason for my weirdness and rather social awkwardness that i have with other people. this can also be why i have the tendency to be blunt. :/ *sigh* oh well it just makes me frustrated not being able to leave my home not even to see my bestfriend :( which irks me a little…. ahh idk where this is going to i’m stoping myself here >.<

‘m in conflict

ok so i was drawing girl on DAmuro and she was coming out ehhh but then i got into drawing her and she came out AWESOME :D but she’s naked -_-; and if i post her on DA naked then i’m a get banned from DA cuz i’m not allowed to post “mature” stuff a;ldskfja;lkdfja;klsjdf;alk it’s bulll Dx but yea idk what to do censor her beauty or go on and risk the ban ;~; a;lkfj;alkfja;lksdf conflict 

maid-en-china: “Dad, I miss you” I want to see you Hug you After 3 long years Call me selfish But I want more than just your voice And the glow of a computer screen It will be my birthday and college graduation in a few days It should be the happiest time of life Yet I can’t stop crying Why? Because the US denied him a visa for the 8th time This is not immigration, this is not illegal workers This is my father The man who paid for my expensive college education Denied the 2 weeks he wants to spend with his daughter For my graduation For my birthday What have I been working for? When I was valedictorian in middle school and high school When I got straight A’s in America’s number 1 public university What is their worth when my dad can’t be here to be proud of me? This land of “opportunities” This land of broken families It’s not enough that they denied me  From seeing my mother at age 5 It’s not enough that my parents divorced  Because love dies as the US denies It’s not enough that after 13 years here A citizen like me can’t experience the simple joys  Of inviting my dad into my home Why is he denied? Because having a wife and son A high income job Plus 3 properties in China Is apparently not enough  To guarantee that he won’t refuse to leave America As if he has anything to gain in this shitty US economy “Why not just visit him instead?” I would if his psychotic wife and son Didn’t chase me away with a knife The last 3 times I tried to visit So I waited 3 years For the moment when my university  Can send graduation invitations It’s the only way to see him again It’s the only thing his paranoid wife would allow Too bad it’s not something the US would allow Dear US Visa Consular All I want is two weeks with my father  To show him my campus, go hiking, and just have dinner together For all the family moments that some take for granted I’ve never had any I begged in my letter to you To please don’t take this away from me But you did You took away all of my hope I’ve never been more ashamed To be an American In this land of the free I am not free To be with my family Not even for two weeks So all I have left As the tears roll down my face Is the cold glow of my laptop And the words “I miss you too” undocumented families suffer as much as any other family but in different matters we worry about never seeing our family ever again  other families worry about not being able to spend the weekend at a bbq we worry about not having the money to send our children off to college  other families are worried that the acceptance letter&#8217;s won&#8217;t get there first  we&#8217;re all families but yet&#8230; one has to suffer more pain because even after being here for 15 years they can&#8217;t get their residence because of the laws that seem to complicate more and more by the second. 
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maid-en-china:

“Dad, I miss you”


I want to see you

Hug you

After 3 long years

Call me selfish

But I want more than just your voice

And the glow of a computer screen

It will be my birthday and college graduation in a few days

It should be the happiest time of life

Yet I can’t stop crying

Why?

Because the US denied him a visa for the 8th time

This is not immigration, this is not illegal workers

This is my father

The man who paid for my expensive college education

Denied the 2 weeks he wants to spend with his daughter

For my graduation

For my birthday

What have I been working for?

When I was valedictorian in middle school and high school

When I got straight A’s in America’s number 1 public university

What is their worth when my dad can’t be here to be proud of me?

This land of “opportunities”

This land of broken families

It’s not enough that they denied me 

From seeing my mother at age 5

It’s not enough that my parents divorced 

Because love dies as the US denies

It’s not enough that after 13 years here

A citizen like me can’t experience the simple joys 

Of inviting my dad into my home

Why is he denied?

Because having a wife and son

A high income job

Plus 3 properties in China

Is apparently not enough 

To guarantee that he won’t refuse to leave America

As if he has anything to gain in this shitty US economy

“Why not just visit him instead?”

I would if his psychotic wife and son

Didn’t chase me away with a knife

The last 3 times I tried to visit

So I waited 3 years

For the moment when my university 

Can send graduation invitations

It’s the only way to see him again

It’s the only thing his paranoid wife would allow

Too bad it’s not something the US would allow

Dear US Visa Consular

All I want is two weeks with my father 

To show him my campus, go hiking, and just have dinner together

For all the family moments that some take for granted

I’ve never had any

I begged in my letter to you

To please don’t take this away from me

But you did

You took away all of my hope

I’ve never been more ashamed

To be an American

In this land of the free

I am not free

To be with my family

Not even for two weeks

So all I have left

As the tears roll down my face

Is the cold glow of my laptop

And the words

“I miss you too”

undocumented families suffer as much as any other family but in different matters

we worry about never seeing our family ever again 

other families worry about not being able to spend the weekend at a bbq

we worry about not having the money to send our children off to college 

other families are worried that the acceptance letter’s won’t get there first 

we’re all families but yet… one has to suffer more pain because even after being here for 15 years they can’t get their residence because of the laws that seem to complicate more and more by the second. 

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